I've been thinking about this lately and I need to get this out.
I decided a couple years ago that I didn't want to quit gymnastics. My coach had just left, and all my friends were either switching gyms, competing high school, or quitting. Our team of 17-18 dwindled to 10 within a few months. It was really rough for me to get used to new coaches because my old coach had taught me everything from a pull over to flyaways. But I decided I would never quit. I wanted to FINISH.
I think of finishing as accomplishing all my goals. At first it was just get a move up score from level 6, but shortly before my coach left the idea of competing level 7 was planted in my head. My goal is to compete level 7, just 2 or 3 meets. I really don't like competing because I get super nervous and I have never performed in a meet as well as I can at practice, but I won't feel like I was a true level 7 until I have competed.
My first competition was set to be on Valentines Day, but it was moved to the friday night before but that's my school's homecoming, and I didn't feel I would be ready, so I'm not competing until March 7th.
I don't feel ready for the meet at all, but I know I'll pull it together. Coach keeps telling me that I might not score high, but I won't make a fool of myself and I don't really care about the scores anyways.
Although that is stressful, I'm more worried about after I'm done. My mom doesn't want to pay the gym after I'm done competing, but I have put everything into gymnastics for the last six years. I have no idea how to not do gymnastics. I'll porbably take on more hours coaching and still work out with the when I want to, but I don't want to clean out my locker. The idea terrifies me. I have a life, friends and other things to do, but I can't wrap my head around the idea of not doing gymnastics. I don't know how to not do gymnastics.
I decided a couple years ago that I didn't want to quit gymnastics. My coach had just left, and all my friends were either switching gyms, competing high school, or quitting. Our team of 17-18 dwindled to 10 within a few months. It was really rough for me to get used to new coaches because my old coach had taught me everything from a pull over to flyaways. But I decided I would never quit. I wanted to FINISH.
I think of finishing as accomplishing all my goals. At first it was just get a move up score from level 6, but shortly before my coach left the idea of competing level 7 was planted in my head. My goal is to compete level 7, just 2 or 3 meets. I really don't like competing because I get super nervous and I have never performed in a meet as well as I can at practice, but I won't feel like I was a true level 7 until I have competed.
My first competition was set to be on Valentines Day, but it was moved to the friday night before but that's my school's homecoming, and I didn't feel I would be ready, so I'm not competing until March 7th.
I don't feel ready for the meet at all, but I know I'll pull it together. Coach keeps telling me that I might not score high, but I won't make a fool of myself and I don't really care about the scores anyways.
Although that is stressful, I'm more worried about after I'm done. My mom doesn't want to pay the gym after I'm done competing, but I have put everything into gymnastics for the last six years. I have no idea how to not do gymnastics. I'll porbably take on more hours coaching and still work out with the when I want to, but I don't want to clean out my locker. The idea terrifies me. I have a life, friends and other things to do, but I can't wrap my head around the idea of not doing gymnastics. I don't know how to not do gymnastics.