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Gymnast
My ears long for the familiar buzz of music and chatter in the gym.
My hands long for the sweet stinging of freshly ripped skin and the feel of the perfect white chalk.
My body longs for the achy feeling that you get after finishing up a hard conditioning session.
My brain longs for the tingly feeling you get going for a new skill and making it.
My heart longs for gymnastics.
It’s where I belong.
The smell, the feel and the atmosphere of the gym is what I need.
My heart said yes but my body said no.
And that’s how I ended up where I am right now.
Sitting at home on a Saturday, with nothing to do, when I could be at the gym.
Instead of icing my back I could be tumbling until I can’t tumble anymore.
I could be peeling skin of my hands… The size of quarters
But no, Im here.
Because my stubborn mind didn’t want to give up.
Admit I was hurt.
So I ignored the face that something was wrong.
Maybe the clue to my coach should have been I was almost in tears trying to touch my toes.
Or the fact I couldn’t run down the vault runway.
Or even go for a back walkover on beam.
For months I silently struggled.
And now I don’t know how long it is until I can do what I love now.
Is it weeks? Months? Never again?
Who knows?
At least I don’t until the 18[SUP]th[/SUP] at 3:00.
That’s when I visit a neurosurgeon
You see, I fractured my L1 vertebrae.
And I have minor scoliosis.
Most likely self induced.
8 days ago I was ordered x-rays by my doctor.
7 days ago I found out what had really been wrong.
And this pain was not a new one.
L1 had been fractured for who knows how long.
And all I want right now is to be at the gym.
I can’t even condition until we find out what is going to happen!
I never thought I would actually WANT to condition…
Wow this just goes to show you what crazy people us gymnasts are!
Please send some healing fairies my way!
As it turns out the vertebrae was fractured a long time ago
We visited the neurosurgeon
I was ordered a CAT scan
And currently my diagnosis is
A degenerative vertebrae
6% of scoliosis
and a cyst on L1
Im seeing the orthopedic doctor on September 7[SUP]th[/SUP] for bracing options and to see where my gymnastics career is headed
Right now I can condition
Oh joy
Ive done a few tumbles and back tucks but it doesn’t hurt that bad
I want gymnastics
Maybe just maybe
My hands long for the sweet stinging of freshly ripped skin and the feel of the perfect white chalk.
My body longs for the achy feeling that you get after finishing up a hard conditioning session.
My brain longs for the tingly feeling you get going for a new skill and making it.
My heart longs for gymnastics.
It’s where I belong.
The smell, the feel and the atmosphere of the gym is what I need.
My heart said yes but my body said no.
And that’s how I ended up where I am right now.
Sitting at home on a Saturday, with nothing to do, when I could be at the gym.
Instead of icing my back I could be tumbling until I can’t tumble anymore.
I could be peeling skin of my hands… The size of quarters
But no, Im here.
Because my stubborn mind didn’t want to give up.
Admit I was hurt.
So I ignored the face that something was wrong.
Maybe the clue to my coach should have been I was almost in tears trying to touch my toes.
Or the fact I couldn’t run down the vault runway.
Or even go for a back walkover on beam.
For months I silently struggled.
And now I don’t know how long it is until I can do what I love now.
Is it weeks? Months? Never again?
Who knows?
At least I don’t until the 18[SUP]th[/SUP] at 3:00.
That’s when I visit a neurosurgeon
You see, I fractured my L1 vertebrae.
And I have minor scoliosis.
Most likely self induced.
8 days ago I was ordered x-rays by my doctor.
7 days ago I found out what had really been wrong.
And this pain was not a new one.
L1 had been fractured for who knows how long.
And all I want right now is to be at the gym.
I can’t even condition until we find out what is going to happen!
I never thought I would actually WANT to condition…
Wow this just goes to show you what crazy people us gymnasts are!
Please send some healing fairies my way!
As it turns out the vertebrae was fractured a long time ago
We visited the neurosurgeon
I was ordered a CAT scan
And currently my diagnosis is
A degenerative vertebrae
6% of scoliosis
and a cyst on L1
Im seeing the orthopedic doctor on September 7[SUP]th[/SUP] for bracing options and to see where my gymnastics career is headed
Right now I can condition
Oh joy
Ive done a few tumbles and back tucks but it doesn’t hurt that bad
I want gymnastics
Maybe just maybe
