So I've recently just made my gyms Xcel Platinum team, I'm 17 and this is my 3rd year of gymnastics. I've been feeling really discouraged lately because a lot of the people on my team are younger than me and way better than me. Or they're my age and 10x better. Not only are they better, but they make improvements, have good form, and just are better gymnasts. I always feel like I'm not good enough and I don't deserve to be on the team.
Today at practice on beam my coach gave me all these assignments but I couldn't do any of them because I couldn't even do the first one (double bwo) I kept falling to the side on my first bwo. I literally spent 30 minutes falling on one bwo. I have this terrible habit of bending my supporting leg in order to get over so I was trying to go with my leading leg lifted a bit and not bending my supporting leg. But I just couldn't make any. Even worse, everyone around me is flying through their assignments and doing skills like bhs, switch leaps, or RO BT dismounts. And I'm struggling on such a beginner skill (which I've had for a while now)
Then on bars my stupid kips are holding me back from connecting anything out of it. I've had my kips for about half a year now and I still can't do it without bending my arms badly. It makes connecting my squat on, freehips, and handstands almost impossible. I don't know I'm still bending my arms and I try super hard to keep them straight but I just can't! I always have to add a cast after my kip.
And of course floor (my worst event) is so inconsistent it drives me crazy. One practice everything will be nice, connected, and high. But most it just sucks. I've had my RO BHS for 2 years and I still have trouble with it sometimes. RO BHS are the easiest skills for people to get and I still have problems with it sometimes.
Then my form just sucks, my toe point is nonexistent, my back isn't flexible, my wrists are weak, and I just feel like I'm never going to be good enough. It's so frustrating and I feel like I'm letting everyone down and honestly most practices and I just feel like falling down and crying. I worked so hard to get where to I am and I have nothing to show for it. Idk what to do anymore. Gymnastics is my passion and I would love nothing else than to do it all the time, but when you suck you just feel like a failure. Sorry this is so long, I'm just really upset right now.
Today at practice on beam my coach gave me all these assignments but I couldn't do any of them because I couldn't even do the first one (double bwo) I kept falling to the side on my first bwo. I literally spent 30 minutes falling on one bwo. I have this terrible habit of bending my supporting leg in order to get over so I was trying to go with my leading leg lifted a bit and not bending my supporting leg. But I just couldn't make any. Even worse, everyone around me is flying through their assignments and doing skills like bhs, switch leaps, or RO BT dismounts. And I'm struggling on such a beginner skill (which I've had for a while now)
Then on bars my stupid kips are holding me back from connecting anything out of it. I've had my kips for about half a year now and I still can't do it without bending my arms badly. It makes connecting my squat on, freehips, and handstands almost impossible. I don't know I'm still bending my arms and I try super hard to keep them straight but I just can't! I always have to add a cast after my kip.
And of course floor (my worst event) is so inconsistent it drives me crazy. One practice everything will be nice, connected, and high. But most it just sucks. I've had my RO BHS for 2 years and I still have trouble with it sometimes. RO BHS are the easiest skills for people to get and I still have problems with it sometimes.
Then my form just sucks, my toe point is nonexistent, my back isn't flexible, my wrists are weak, and I just feel like I'm never going to be good enough. It's so frustrating and I feel like I'm letting everyone down and honestly most practices and I just feel like falling down and crying. I worked so hard to get where to I am and I have nothing to show for it. Idk what to do anymore. Gymnastics is my passion and I would love nothing else than to do it all the time, but when you suck you just feel like a failure. Sorry this is so long, I'm just really upset right now.