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Okay, please don't think I'm crazy, but I seriously can't even enjoy DD's meets because I'm so nervous. I feel sick and my hands shake and my heart pounds so fast I feel like I might have a heart attack. This can't be normal. I try to talk myself out of being nervous because there isn't any real reason to be nervous. It's not that important how she performs. She's 6 and it's level 4. She doesn't get upset when she messes up, so it's not about being nervous that she'll be upset. It's not even about how she performs really because I always find something to be proud of. When she falls I'm so proud of how she picks herself up and keeps going and then smiles. I don't have any lofty expectations for her. I want her to do her best of course, like every other parent, but I'm proud of her no matter what. So what is it? Please tell me someone else has this much anxiety about meets?
I almost think it's really just that I'm feeling the way I would feel if I were the one competing. I used to have a career in performance and I had terrible performance anxiety, hence the term "used to". I struggled with it forever and finally decided my love for what I was doing was not stronger than the horrible anxiety. I tried medication (beta blockers) and while they helped a lot, it was still pretty unbearable to feel that kind of anxiety and dread about performing. So I think I'm having anxiety as if I'm the one competing. Luckily DD has no anxiety and I do not let her see how nervous I am.
I'd just feel better to know that there is someone else out there as crazy as me.
I almost think it's really just that I'm feeling the way I would feel if I were the one competing. I used to have a career in performance and I had terrible performance anxiety, hence the term "used to". I struggled with it forever and finally decided my love for what I was doing was not stronger than the horrible anxiety. I tried medication (beta blockers) and while they helped a lot, it was still pretty unbearable to feel that kind of anxiety and dread about performing. So I think I'm having anxiety as if I'm the one competing. Luckily DD has no anxiety and I do not let her see how nervous I am.
I'd just feel better to know that there is someone else out there as crazy as me.